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I could put different parts of my life under some thematic context or another, but I think there might be one best to the total sum of my experience, and in the interest of normalizing these things I'm going to be super blunt about it.

I've struggled with mental illness since I was about 6 years old. I've been on countless anti-depressants, several attention span corrective health plans, therapy. I spent the second half of my sophomore year of high-school in a mental facility.

I've spent my whole life fighting my own mind. Even medicated properly (which I am currently, thankfully), with a good diet and exercise regimen, I sometimes cannot muster the power to get out of bed, or cook, or go outside, or anything at all.

I think the theme of my life is almost unquestionably "Learning to be content even when you are miserable"